He felt the arm of his enemy snap but
that was not enough, he then them onto the ground as they screamed in pain and
without remorse he stomped on their spine. Rudraya woke in a cold sweat, his
wasn't the first time he had this dream. For the past week he had dreamt. He had
never killed anything larger than insect in his life although some part of
him was trying to convince him that the thing was a mass f hatred made flesh,
he was wracked with guilt, it could have been a person once had he killed
someone? He put the thought out of his head while, choosing to ignore it for
now. When tall guy had left him in the alley he had lain there for a which
healing, his power meant he was able to drag himself to his feet and slowly
stumble to his appartment. The wound itself had closed up in half an hour, but
the internal healing took another couple of hours.
So there were others with powers, what
should he do? what would his teacher have done? And what could he do? He was
just another low immigrant working in the library of Novum Aurora? His parents would have said don't think to much son,
just go with what feels right, we know you better than you think.
"How will I find people with this shithole of a situation I'm in!?" he
shouted out loud.
For the last couple of days he had gone
to work as normal, but his mind was constantly drifting. Filing books away in
the wrong places, staring into space. It was almost enough to stop the constant
pin pricks on his mind of people wanting books found. Today was the same, he
drifted into one of his favorite section, the religion and spirituality
section, why they grouped the two together was not surprising but not correct
in his opinion. He picked a book at random
and opened it and read the first sentence he saw “anyone who wants
change has to change in ways yet un-thought of,” he immediately dismissed the
book and almost threw it aside in his dark mood. Money was one of the least
important things in his life, he valued it less for its hold it had on most
people but he had to admit that without it, sometimes you were nothing going
nowhere. As he walked home he saw a sign
saying , “want to further your prospects? Attend the University of Novum
Aurora, the most prestigious in the world, now offering apprentice ships!!,” it
would have been the perfect place for his research he would have access to all
sorts of information...but what would he study?
He had a set of A Levels to his name but what if they dug too deep?
Found out he was an illegal immigrant? But he had to try, it was his only
chance.
As
he entered his front door he pick up the junk mail and sorted through
it. “Join the university of Novum Aurora today...” once was probably just
coincidence but twice? Well if he had wanted a sign he had just got one. Rudraya
believed in life giving you pointers, he wasn't so sure of the concept of fate
but he believed in life giving you a message. But it was such a big change for
him, if it succeeded, “anyone who wants change has to change in ways yet
un-thought of,” what the hell, he had nothing to loose. He spent the next couple of days trying to
decide what he would like to study. His
first thought was psychology or philosophy, they would be of lesser difficuly
to register for and hopefully they would be impressed with his knowledge. Maybe
religious studies since he had already read a lot on the subject. His aim was
to get something that wouldn’t take too much work so he could focus on looking
for people. He also had to think about job prospects.....he was thinking too
much just get there first.
To their credit the university
architects had done a good job when they constructed the building, they had
covered up austere grey blocks with sweeping glass and metal panels. He
supposed the main building was a traditional old affair but the student
reception area was cool. It was all new to him nothing unfamiliar. After all he
worked in the biggest and most prestigious library in the city, yet he had to
admit to himself that the system still overwhelmed him and he was more than a
bit nervous, almost nervous enough to cover up the now more frequent pin pricks
on his psyche as he was now with a large group of people. He tried to stay near
the back and be unnoticed. His long hair was almost an advantage as most of
the male students milling around also had similar hairstyles. They walked round
the various campuses and building for a couple of hours, it was a clear sunny day and he was just glad
to be walking about outside, a gentle breeze was a welcome addition as the sun
bathed everything in a golden heat. Everything seemed so vibrant to his eyes. He
had never seen buildings with so much glass and open spaces lit by natural
light, and he was impressed by the potential for learning at this place. Many
millions of people had come and gone here, each would study the subject that
would potentially start them on a life long journey. Once the group returned to
the students reception it had been set up as a sort of market type stall affair,
with a program detailing the different subject to be studied and people you
could ask questions to. He drifted towards the arts and humanities area,
something that wouldn't take him too much time or effort and something he would
be interested in.
He hesitantly made his way to the philosophy
stall. "Hello, are you interested in studying philosopy with the
university?", "how could you guess!" thought Rudraya as he
replied. The man he was talking to had a typlical student look about him, bad
hair check, bad breath check and bad clothing. Then again in the clothing
department Rudraya couldn't really compete. He briefly talked about all the
modules that were on offer, the different philosophers that would be studied
in depth. Rudraya cast an eye over the psychology and thanked the man for the
information. He went over to the psychology stall and received the same sort of
information. He made his way to the finance desk where e would find out if the
day had been a complete waste. "Hello, I want to find out if I will be
eligible for a student loan" he said, the women at the desk was looked to
be in her mid thirties and had a helping air. She gave him a form to fill in
asking for his age how long had he been living in Novum Aurora and how long he
had been working.She then too,the form from him and input the information into
he computer. Rudraya was nervous and had the familiar uneasy feeling in his
chest. He hadn't realised how much he was looking for a change in his life, and how much he was relying on this. He hated
being nervous, he hated having to depend on others but he new that everyone
depended on someone or something and one point or another in their life. He was
fidgeting with his hands when, and hating himself for it when the lady said,
"lets see what you are eligible for," he almost was holding his
breath at this point "it looks like you will be in good hands Rudraya!,
you are eligible for a student loan with an additional grant due to the amount
of time you have been working and the fact that you have no guarantors,"
"guarantors?" he asked? "You have no people you can depend
on", a flash of sadness passed across his eyes but it was gone as quickly
as it appeared.
The rest of the day passed in the blink
of an eye, now he was back in his
apartment. So little had gone well for him in the past few years. There had
been moments, brief flashes of what should have been, when he managed to secure
a job and and wasn't homeless. He felt like time had stopped passing for these
moments now he looked back, he felt a weight off his shoulders, he couldn't place what it was at first, but as he sat there it came, it was expectation.
When he was younger he had always thought his life had been meant for something,
not that he was better than everyone but that he was meant for something. The
past few years had crushed that notion out of him, at least he thought they
had. He had not expected all those old feelings to come up, funny how it had
started, all he wanted to do was find others with powers, now he had a government loan and a possibility of making a bit more of himself. He sat there
and allowed a small tear to fall. How could a small drop contain so much?
